This is" MY CHEAHLEADAH" (MK Keogan)

FU....
Today I am ANGRY!  After a wonderful visit with my sister in Indiana, I have returned to my handsome boy in the hospital, in DKA, in ICU.... 

There is nothing worse than a sick kiddo, especially a sick kid in the hospital.  You maybe questioning why I am writing such an angry post...AWARENESS! I have often wondered how we signed up for this feat and always am reminded that we didn't, we were chosen.  

As I talked to him on the phone today (during my 10 hour drive home), I am reminded of how he is human, he is still a young man, and he hurts more than I have ever HURT in my entire life...I had to be compassionate.

As I talked to him on the phone today, I couldn't allow him to see my tears for his pain, I had to be strong.

As I talked to him today, I heard his disappointment and anger, I had to listen.

As I talked to him today, I focused on how fabulous of a person I get to call son.

As I talked to him today, I wanted desperately to trade places with him, I get to sit in the bedside chair and watch him flip and flop in a hospital bed. 

As I talked to him today, I wanted Brooke to be home with us and to make it all better by laughing, crying, and smiling at her brother, in a way nobody else can, but I know she is grown up.
 
As I talked to him today, I know Reed may never understand the cheerleader's he has pulling for him, but I am one proud mama, cheering for this T1D...

FU, T1D

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